Faced with yet another change in my treatment course and feeling discouraged I wanted to just head home, curl up and sleep, turn my mind off. I am positive and try to maintain that attitude but there are times when it seems impossible, maybe that’s not the right way to think but some days it is just too much. Living with MBC has made me stronger than I thought I could ever be , but there are days that the fight seems impossible at times. For a few minutes I pondered just doing that, heading home and curling up and just crying and just maybe my mind would stop spinning. I was feeling defeated, MBC was winning; I am not willing to let that happen and despite feeling sad, angry and depressed I wanted to not let this hurdle throw me off course, nor did I want MBC to control my thoughts; if there is one thing I can control it is how I choose to fight back. After the initial stages of feeling angry and sad I wanted to do something for both Matt and I, a way to bounce back and continue to show strength while being positive and hopeful. Something neither of us have done, and give us the chance to burn off the anger and disappointment we felt. We decided to visit a ropes course and go zip lining something neither of us had done. Something that we would love and also be able to distract our minds even for a short period. It was a great way to clear my mind and regain my positive focus.
Moore Fight Moore Strong!!